Thinking of Thinking

It works twice to experience the localized babylon here in manila philippines. Partying in this place was a little discovery. There is place we call “party place for plu” plu mean people like us. were all men dance and get wild whole night.

Of course its a place of entertainment. There are some drag queens who holler the night.

Good music and gay themed club-house music. drinking and sex invitation are just there in every corners of the bar.

This place is a babylon on my second perception and observation.

Looking forward to have fun. Till my time permits me to Chillax.. Chill and relax.

wooahhh… Next time there should ne more numbers to exchange in that place… hahhaha!!!

See you soon my babylonian price charming…

thats all for now.

The great day for me. Sunday is always the most relaxing and non-busy day. O well, I tested it several times already. City traffic is just moderate and everyone likes to be in the mall. Specially the month of march is extremely hot. Sunday time is also reflection moment and more freebies inside the mall. Shopping and going to Church inside the mall is a blessing.

The sunday moment is just a few adventures i had inside the mall. Seeing good and beautiful peole makes my day complete. Eating and dining is also a good treat while inside the mall and selecting a good place where to dine.

whhhhaaaarahhhh… I went home HAPPY and a Little tired!

sleeping has been my favorite hubby.  Who else does? perhaps most of us. The joy of sleeping is great reward for a person who works everynight. That’s the only thing we wish for. Sleep just to stay energized and to relaxed. Sleep to ponder on some things and dream about the fantasy you wish for.

Sleeping has been a habit! at the moment you open your eyes slowly and the sun is there to see you whole night and whole day. That’s a joy in long sleep I had. As if new phase of life I should tackle again. The routine is just there for all of us.

I’m happy to get sleep and happy to get sleep like a dead log. I sleep that way.

Have you ever experience sleeping that way? for sure many of us. Now there are times that my sleeping program was a bit morbid and horrifying. There’s a lot of noise inside your mind that keeps you awake. I feel being stressed after I woke up. I don’t know may be my mind has something to say but I can’t decode the message. I know it would anxiety for some instance or I’m just to preoccupied of things. I ended a night of feeling awake and litting some cigar just to stay calm. However it doest work at all. Maybe im in serious state that it is hard for me to understand the message in my mind.

The same process again and all over again. Maybe next time I could get some sleep and hoping the best sleep will come.

yawning!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! but my mind can’t get sleep.

have time here. drink your fave filipino coffee. I love it here. it keeps my mind relaxed and focused. I manage to make friends with crew and cafe goer here. funny! I take ownership here. I could surf the internet.

The world was just shaking a little. Maybe a magnitude point something. The day was just so busy and the hearts is every where. I could see people dating, group dating, double dating and everything. There are also old couple dating in more mature way and some oldies enjoy their dates in more romantic ways. Like dating in cafe or classy resto playing classic music or jazz.

That was so amazing to witness the love day. And the date i had was my good friend. She is a girl. But we are just special friends and not even a lover. The good thing was we never get bored because we are with other couple dating also. It’s a double date! We ate in fancy restaurant in boni high street. I think I deserved to be there in that day. I’m into my role of giving guidance and love/ relationship counselor in that day.

They seek advices on how there relationship last and strong. The same old ways, guidance and counseling is my line. The long hour of conversation and series of probe tactics was I think made them realized the essence of being thrue partners. Ohhh my service was for free. It’s my previledge of helping them and make there valentines day happy and peaceful.

After the ends day, My friend and me went home, then we just dream the day that we had a good date with our respective partners in the future. I feel sad a little, it crossed in my mind that I had experience the true love in the past relationship. O well, I made it clear. I’ve been single for three years now and I happy with. Hoping my prince would come and kissed me with magic. Whahhhhrahhhh!!!!

That’s is valentines day and love month.

there are times that im losing faith in my life. The pressure that sometimes unbearable. Im into struggle asking nothing for help. I did this because this what we call pride. its okay to keep my pride as long this is a short term process. for this Im becoming a stronger person. i have this contentment for now. Im seeking to be successful one of this day.

Hhahaha! this life is in the roller coster ride. sometimes cyclone loop keeps me in the upside down and somehow it is too fast. but in the end of the ride it will slow you down and think  over again.

ohh im actually doing fine now. maybe tomorrow im not.

“Fidel,” a story written by Charlotte Diangco, and directed by mark shandii bacolod, tackles the contreversial topic of “male rape” among OFWs in the Dubai. Fidel is a rape victim and killed his employer because he rape him.

It’s a reality happening so it’s not a voyeuristic thing. The truth is victims are male overseas worker in middle east or arabian country or any part of the world.

Since Men are seen in society as the backbone of the family, they bring these dark secrets to their graves. Filipino men work abroad the earn and provide the best for their families.

But sad truth is that, what if you fall to the arms of misery and be his next prey . This is not just all about homosexuality. Real men are victims too. They have same feelings as what women felt when they was raped.

This is more than pain and death.

The Mayonnaise Jar

  When things in your life seem, almost too much to handle,
When 24 Hours in a day is not enough,
Remember the mayonnaise jar and 2 cups of coffee.

A professor stood before his philosophy class
and had some items in front of him.
When the class began, wordlessly,
He picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar
And proceeded to fill it with golf balls.

He then asked the students, if the jar was full.
They agreed that it was.

The professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured
them into the jar.  He shook the jar lightly.
The pebbles rolled into the open Areas between the golf balls.

He then asked the students again if the jar was full.  They agreed it was.

The professor next picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar.
Of course, the sand filled up everything else.
He asked once more if the jar was full. The students responded with a unanimous ‘yes.’

The professor then produced two cups of coffee from under the table and poured the entire contents into the jar, effectively
filling the empty space between the sand.  The students laughed.

‘Now,’ said the professor,  as the laughter subsided,
‘I want you to recognize that this jar represents your life.
The golf balls are the important things – family,
children, health, Friends, and Favorite passions –
Things that if everything else was lost and only they remained, Your life would still be full.

The pebbles are the other things that matter like your job, house, and car.

The sand is everything else –The small stuff.

‘If you put the sand into the jar first,’  He continued,
there is no room for  the pebbles or the golf balls.
The same goes for life.

If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff,
You will never have room for the things that are important to you.

So…

Pay attention to the things that are critical to your happiness.
Play With your children.
Take time to get medical checkups.
Take your partner out to dinner.

There will always be time to clean the house and fix the disposal.

‘Take care of the golf balls first –
The things that really matter.
Set your priorities. The rest is just sand.’

One of the students raised her hand and inquired what the coffee represented.

The professor smiled.
‘I’m glad you asked’.

It just goes to show you that no matter how full your life may seem,
there’s always room for a couple of cups of coffee with a friend.’

Please share this with other “Golf Balls”
I just did……

disclaimer: I don’t have right to this articles. It is entended for reading and reflections. This could help you.

I think the right age for a person like me to fall in love and to be love is 18 years of age. hitting the legal age. I never had a chance to fall in love at that age and up to now. Maybe i’m too manly or secretly hide my real self to other people. That’s a shallow reason i got.

Back in college, I was never attached to any collegues i met. Even some of them are handsome and good gentlemen. I know they are gay just like me. At the time college love-relationship was never part in my curriculum. Might be Im just a casual nerd at that time. Just hanging around in library, instead in university gym or in laboratory, instead in hallways or big field. I must say i have a good eye spotting my crushes in the campus but i dont dare to flirt to anyone of them. nor stalking and hang arountd to their spot place every weekend. Maybe im just being a hopeless romantic at that time.

Chances at that time, I have a slight experience or feeling of being special to someone. yet, It only ended up to be a good friendship, not what i was expected. hahaha! I feel that as was not made to love but to be a friend to everone. The scenarion goes like this; when someone curting me, my feelings just turn away and we ended like to be friends. When the time there is proposal, i’ll just turn down it. (im not bitter). I have many alibis and worries to explain. Im so sorry to them, and Im so so sorry for myself. the chance never come back again.

Now that im working already, It change all, i have no time to fall in love. maybe im too hook in my career. I dont even bother give chance to a suitor to have date with me. (no, im not bitter) My mind change constantly. The reason I have is they will just play around with me. I also dislike cheesiness (corny).

I was  not and never a CHOSSY guy. That happens because i value friendship than engaging in relationship. 

Im telling you guys ”I’m not stone-hearted person”. I’m just waiting a right guy (perhaps he is my prince charming)

There are times that im too alone in my life. It’s a feeling that I can’t explain why is this happening. This feelings sometimes visit me to kill me. Maybe there are some guilt in my life. All I want is to know this feeling.